For the past few weeks I've been thinking about my relationship and what was going on in it. We've been together for a year and 8 months and still haven't met. He wants me to move with him and we haven't even met yet. I can't even meet him right now since I just started a new job and I can't take off a week for a long time. He wont even think about coming to see me which really made me think that as much as I love him and want this to work out. It just wont. I can't keep doing this long distance thing for the rest of my life. I mean we have gotten into such a routine that neither of us for the past month and a half even talked about meeting or anything. All I here from him is come here or move here. Its not that simple. I don't know if I can pack up my entire life and move across the country.
So tonight I just decided to end it. As hard as it was and as sad as I am right now I'm thinking it for the best. I never wanted this to happen. I've been thinking about it for awhile but I just kept putting it off because I don't want to loose him. I've never felt this way about anyone. I feel like I've found the love of my life and yet I have him but can't physically be with him.
I've never invested to much time and energy into one person. Now I feel like what am I going to do with all that time I set aside for him. I just feel kinda empty right now and I know that things will get better. UGH! I'm trying to hard not to cry right now!
So tonight I just decided to end it. As hard as it was and as sad as I am right now I'm thinking it for the best. I never wanted this to happen. I've been thinking about it for awhile but I just kept putting it off because I don't want to loose him. I've never felt this way about anyone. I feel like I've found the love of my life and yet I have him but can't physically be with him.
I've never invested to much time and energy into one person. Now I feel like what am I going to do with all that time I set aside for him. I just feel kinda empty right now and I know that things will get better. UGH! I'm trying to hard not to cry right now!
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