Well, it's that time of year, when all us students get super busy and overloaded with projects, homework and exams. I'm starting to feel it, and I know others are feeling it too.
Here's the thing, Brandon is in his last year, and he has a HUGE final project he's been working on since September, and with all of this visiting he's gotten really far behind. I started to notice he was texting me alot less, taking forever to get back to me. He told me to stop talking to him on msn, and he doesn't want to do video chats anymore because he can't concentrate... All because literally all of his time now goes into this project.
Last night we had a bit of a fight about it. I'm really selfish, and I know I am, and I told him that. I said something along the lines of not even wanting to talk to him until his project is done, because I feel worse about it when I start talking and I'm just ignored, and of course he takes it the wrong way and thinks I'm being sarcastic and stuff. Anyways he said he still wants to talk but I keep trying today and every time he says he's busy or he doesn't know. I feel worse and worse each time. He says he wouldn't expect me to understand, which of course made me feel really immature and started another fight.
I REALLY don't want to be mad at him for this. I know he needs to work hard on this and I know I should support that but I don't know what to do. The project is due on the 9th, which isn't too long from now anyways. I don't know whether to stop talking to him or to keep trying and be ignored, I don't know how to distract myself from this and I don't know how to keep myself from looking like an immature little girl. I don't know what he wants from me right now, and it hurts. I'm going through a really hard time right now and I need him but feel selfish for even bringing it up when I talk to him. I need someone to talk to and he says he'll listen but halfway through he tells me to stop because he's 'gotta finish this by tomorrow' or 'needs some sleep for class'... It keeps me up at night. I don't know. Am I even making sense anymore? I'm ranting, aren't I...
*sigh* Anyways... any thoughts, guys? :P
Here's the thing, Brandon is in his last year, and he has a HUGE final project he's been working on since September, and with all of this visiting he's gotten really far behind. I started to notice he was texting me alot less, taking forever to get back to me. He told me to stop talking to him on msn, and he doesn't want to do video chats anymore because he can't concentrate... All because literally all of his time now goes into this project.
Last night we had a bit of a fight about it. I'm really selfish, and I know I am, and I told him that. I said something along the lines of not even wanting to talk to him until his project is done, because I feel worse about it when I start talking and I'm just ignored, and of course he takes it the wrong way and thinks I'm being sarcastic and stuff. Anyways he said he still wants to talk but I keep trying today and every time he says he's busy or he doesn't know. I feel worse and worse each time. He says he wouldn't expect me to understand, which of course made me feel really immature and started another fight.
I REALLY don't want to be mad at him for this. I know he needs to work hard on this and I know I should support that but I don't know what to do. The project is due on the 9th, which isn't too long from now anyways. I don't know whether to stop talking to him or to keep trying and be ignored, I don't know how to distract myself from this and I don't know how to keep myself from looking like an immature little girl. I don't know what he wants from me right now, and it hurts. I'm going through a really hard time right now and I need him but feel selfish for even bringing it up when I talk to him. I need someone to talk to and he says he'll listen but halfway through he tells me to stop because he's 'gotta finish this by tomorrow' or 'needs some sleep for class'... It keeps me up at night. I don't know. Am I even making sense anymore? I'm ranting, aren't I...
*sigh* Anyways... any thoughts, guys? :P
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