I'll start off by saying that this all has to do with me. My SO told me not to worry about this and I know I shouldn't but it still bugs me...
I've only been in this rut recently, but I would really like to get out it sooner since I am putting myself into a situation which doesn't feel good at all - almost like being tortured by myself.
Anyways.....
In my SOs previous relationship her and her ex. cuddled, kissed and touched each other. They didn't do that, that often since they didn't see each other that much, but that still bugs me since I was not her first boyfriend to touch her, kiss her and cuddle with her. Which all means a lot to me... but what can be done? how can I stop myself looping around this... this what happened in the past which I shouldn't worry about.
I guess another thing related to this that bugs me is that I keep on asking my SO about the past, which I know I have told her I wouldn't. That is frustrating for me because I am going against my own word, which is making myself feeling untrustworthy to myself according to my morale's.
I feel terrible about this... since she means so much to me.
Any advice/help ya all would be greatly appreciated!
I've only been in this rut recently, but I would really like to get out it sooner since I am putting myself into a situation which doesn't feel good at all - almost like being tortured by myself.
Anyways.....
In my SOs previous relationship her and her ex. cuddled, kissed and touched each other. They didn't do that, that often since they didn't see each other that much, but that still bugs me since I was not her first boyfriend to touch her, kiss her and cuddle with her. Which all means a lot to me... but what can be done? how can I stop myself looping around this... this what happened in the past which I shouldn't worry about.
I guess another thing related to this that bugs me is that I keep on asking my SO about the past, which I know I have told her I wouldn't. That is frustrating for me because I am going against my own word, which is making myself feeling untrustworthy to myself according to my morale's.
I feel terrible about this... since she means so much to me.
Any advice/help ya all would be greatly appreciated!
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