Hello you who remember me.
I'm back or something at least for a few days while I continue to process.
My relationship with Katelyn is officially over.
Allow me to give some sort of walkthrough over the past months events.
During the summer and during the fall we started to drift away, in the amount of time spent together. The reasons were the same, School, work, friends and other things that always seemed to pop up to keep us apart. This time, distance didn't make the heart grow fonder. Reversibly it caused rifts between us as I had to listen through things such as her coworker had said to her friend that she was hot, or that her other coworker thought she looked like a younger version of his former girlfriend. Sure my work on jealousy had come quite far by now, yet I felt it was a bit insensitive. Constantly were the days where we just spoke on the evening and the most I ever really got was how she was sad because she overate, and I listened through what she ate, or something similar like that. Granted I had to adapt after a while, with the positive effect of not being too dependent on her. After a few months of this sort of treatment we had a fight. I don't even remember what it was about anymore.
We started working on the relationship after that, however, and it was going pretty good. We started talking more and saw eachother more. Then came this dance party of her friends, that had been in the planning for actually a surprisingly long time as I remember I asked her if she wanted to go with me, despite me being bad at dancing, at least 3 months prior, to which she said no. She said she rather go alone, since I didn't know anyone there.
Then about 2 weeks ago her guyfriend, well at least that's what she calls him, asks her to this dance and she says yes. Katelyn and I saw eachother the whole evening that same day but she didn't mention anything. In fact she blocked me from her facebook so I wouldn't find the pictures of the two together. The next day I did see them despite that, as her friend uploaded them and I caught them on news feed. I was destroyed within, not as much from the fact that she said yes, as the fact that she actively hid it from me and took measures to hinder me from finding out. This is not the first time she's kept things from me as 10 days before I moved here, for her, she danced with this other guy, dirtydancing to that, and I found it out a week after I had moved here.
The direct result was that I was too heartbroken and broke up with her right then and there. The fury that I kept inside came out a bit too much at times, I admit. We decided however to remain friends. One evening also after that her friends started IMing me via facebook and told me that I don't deserve her the way I treat her and that I never did. That I was manipulative and controllive etc. etc.
My second breakdown from this series of events came today when she changed profile picture to one where the other guy holds her arms wrapped around her and she holds his hand in hers. I can't find any sort of reason why she would change that even though she still claims that they have nothing together.
Idk just ranting and sad.I'm now officially alone, feeling betrayed by the person I moved across the world for, having to stick it out for another few months until I'm done with school and can move back to my own country.
I'm back or something at least for a few days while I continue to process.
My relationship with Katelyn is officially over.
Allow me to give some sort of walkthrough over the past months events.
During the summer and during the fall we started to drift away, in the amount of time spent together. The reasons were the same, School, work, friends and other things that always seemed to pop up to keep us apart. This time, distance didn't make the heart grow fonder. Reversibly it caused rifts between us as I had to listen through things such as her coworker had said to her friend that she was hot, or that her other coworker thought she looked like a younger version of his former girlfriend. Sure my work on jealousy had come quite far by now, yet I felt it was a bit insensitive. Constantly were the days where we just spoke on the evening and the most I ever really got was how she was sad because she overate, and I listened through what she ate, or something similar like that. Granted I had to adapt after a while, with the positive effect of not being too dependent on her. After a few months of this sort of treatment we had a fight. I don't even remember what it was about anymore.
We started working on the relationship after that, however, and it was going pretty good. We started talking more and saw eachother more. Then came this dance party of her friends, that had been in the planning for actually a surprisingly long time as I remember I asked her if she wanted to go with me, despite me being bad at dancing, at least 3 months prior, to which she said no. She said she rather go alone, since I didn't know anyone there.
Then about 2 weeks ago her guyfriend, well at least that's what she calls him, asks her to this dance and she says yes. Katelyn and I saw eachother the whole evening that same day but she didn't mention anything. In fact she blocked me from her facebook so I wouldn't find the pictures of the two together. The next day I did see them despite that, as her friend uploaded them and I caught them on news feed. I was destroyed within, not as much from the fact that she said yes, as the fact that she actively hid it from me and took measures to hinder me from finding out. This is not the first time she's kept things from me as 10 days before I moved here, for her, she danced with this other guy, dirtydancing to that, and I found it out a week after I had moved here.
The direct result was that I was too heartbroken and broke up with her right then and there. The fury that I kept inside came out a bit too much at times, I admit. We decided however to remain friends. One evening also after that her friends started IMing me via facebook and told me that I don't deserve her the way I treat her and that I never did. That I was manipulative and controllive etc. etc.
My second breakdown from this series of events came today when she changed profile picture to one where the other guy holds her arms wrapped around her and she holds his hand in hers. I can't find any sort of reason why she would change that even though she still claims that they have nothing together.
Idk just ranting and sad.I'm now officially alone, feeling betrayed by the person I moved across the world for, having to stick it out for another few months until I'm done with school and can move back to my own country.
I'm so sorry to hear. I hope the next few months aren't too. unbearable
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