I would really love some input and advice from my fellow LDR college students. I'm not really sure that this has anything to do with my LDR, but if you make a connection please let me know. This last semester was HORRIBLE for me. I failed two of my classes (never failed a class in my entire life), so they kicked me out of my major. School starts Thursday, so I'm hoping they get me switched to Business Administration by then so that I don't have to put school on hold for a semester. My problem is that I have been so unmotivated to do well in school, though the fact that I lost half of my financial aid due to my low GPA does help a little, because if I pull my GPA up I will get it back. I'm not sure if it's because I lost interest in my classes, or if it's because I just feel so stuck right now, like my life is going no where.
Being in an LDR is almost like being single, at least it feels that way for me. Yes I am in love with him, and yes I do realize that I am still in a relationship, but not being able to see him, hug him, or hold his hand just makes me feel like I don't have a boyfriend sometimes. That may sound awful, but it's the best way I can describe how lonely I get at times. The fact that he is not here with me makes me feel like I'm going no where with my life, like we can't make progress in our relationship and life together. I'm watching all of my high school friends get engaged, get married, have babies, and here I sit, taking online classes for a major I didn't even care about obviously, and waiting for my LDR boyfriend to move back home so that we can maybe talk about getting engaged. He should be my motivation, right? Our potential life together should make me want to succeed in my studies so that I can help make us happy. But I feel like what's holding me back is that right now I don't have anything to look forward to, or to plan for. Yes, eventually we will get engaged, but it's almost like until that is reality, nothing is going to push me to strive for college degree. I don't have a "career mindset". I want to be a stay-at-home wife/mother, I really don't care if I get a high paying job with some well known company. But the fact of the matter is, he is going to be a pilot, they make practically nothing starting out, therefore I need to have a job to help support us, and to get a decent job I will need a college degree...
What I'm getting to is that I need some way of motivating myself... I don't know what to do, and I'll take any positive advice you all can give me. Thanks!
Being in an LDR is almost like being single, at least it feels that way for me. Yes I am in love with him, and yes I do realize that I am still in a relationship, but not being able to see him, hug him, or hold his hand just makes me feel like I don't have a boyfriend sometimes. That may sound awful, but it's the best way I can describe how lonely I get at times. The fact that he is not here with me makes me feel like I'm going no where with my life, like we can't make progress in our relationship and life together. I'm watching all of my high school friends get engaged, get married, have babies, and here I sit, taking online classes for a major I didn't even care about obviously, and waiting for my LDR boyfriend to move back home so that we can maybe talk about getting engaged. He should be my motivation, right? Our potential life together should make me want to succeed in my studies so that I can help make us happy. But I feel like what's holding me back is that right now I don't have anything to look forward to, or to plan for. Yes, eventually we will get engaged, but it's almost like until that is reality, nothing is going to push me to strive for college degree. I don't have a "career mindset". I want to be a stay-at-home wife/mother, I really don't care if I get a high paying job with some well known company. But the fact of the matter is, he is going to be a pilot, they make practically nothing starting out, therefore I need to have a job to help support us, and to get a decent job I will need a college degree...
What I'm getting to is that I need some way of motivating myself... I don't know what to do, and I'll take any positive advice you all can give me. Thanks!
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