I don't know if this happens to anyone else, or if its just us.
Both times after he left and when he got home we skyped and talked- but it seems different =/
Like more distance (i dont mean literally because obviously there IS that kind of distance) but more hesitant to be close like we were before he even came here//was here. We dont talk as much and normally we busy ourselves in the call rather then spending our attention on each other.
Why is it like the spark is gone? Because, i KNOW it isnt.. it just took like a month to return after the first time we met =/. Is it just because we are both so upset over us being alone again? I really dont know, mostly because when im hurting i block out all my feelings.
We normally skype anywhere from 4-20 hours a day (we sleep in call as often as possible.. and stay in call as long as possible- the short days are him working)
Naturally- i feel like anyone else this would get insanely boring with but after 4 years of this- we dont really have many days of empty conversation!
Once again, i know this isnt us actually losing the spark- we just spent 110 days together and finally talked about closing the distance, so whats up?
Both times after he left and when he got home we skyped and talked- but it seems different =/
Like more distance (i dont mean literally because obviously there IS that kind of distance) but more hesitant to be close like we were before he even came here//was here. We dont talk as much and normally we busy ourselves in the call rather then spending our attention on each other.
Why is it like the spark is gone? Because, i KNOW it isnt.. it just took like a month to return after the first time we met =/. Is it just because we are both so upset over us being alone again? I really dont know, mostly because when im hurting i block out all my feelings.
We normally skype anywhere from 4-20 hours a day (we sleep in call as often as possible.. and stay in call as long as possible- the short days are him working)
Naturally- i feel like anyone else this would get insanely boring with but after 4 years of this- we dont really have many days of empty conversation!
Once again, i know this isnt us actually losing the spark- we just spent 110 days together and finally talked about closing the distance, so whats up?
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