My boyfriend Brandon hasn't spoke to me in more than a week. I know it's hard to give advices without knowing the person, so I'll try to make it easier to understand. Brandon and I have been dating for 6 months, I had to leave the States and fly back to Venezuela because of immigration issues with my student VISA. I didn't want to leave and Brandon didn't want me to leave either but it was something I had to do. Hopefully I'll be back by the end of January when school starts. It's been almost 2 months since I left and we had been in contact ever since. We didn't talk everyday but every 2, 3 days we texted, talked over the phone and 1 time we skyped. Last Saturday I was home and he sent me a few pictures of his trip to Colorado. His best friend Will lives there and he wanted to go visit him and see the mountains. Before I left he mentioned a couple times that he was thinking about moving there with Will. Brandon lives in Lake St. Louis/MO with his friend Charlie and his dad. Charlie and his father are supposed to move by the end of the year or in Spring. When I met Brandon he was pretty confused about what he wanted to do with his life, he said that he was too old to be this unsuccessful. I want him to be happy and follow his dreams just like I've been doing it. Anyway, he sent me a few pictures and then told me "I am going to live here", I asked "With Will?" and he said yes. Maybe I overreacted but it just made me feel so sad and upset the fact the he wasn't including me in his plans. I don't know what he's thinking or if his decision is true. He often changes his mind over things. I said, "I guess I won't see you again anymore, but if that's what you need to be happy go for it". Then he said "I have time back home before I move". Which made me think, time for what?
Lastly I said "I get it, I have to let go, I should have done it before. It's clear I have nothing to do with you and your plans so stop pretending you love and care about me. I won't get my heart broken again." I wasn't trying to sound like I was the victim. Maybe he thinks I don't want him to talk to me. I just don't understand why after telling me how much he misses me and loves me, that he wants to help me, that he is scared that I'm in this country with so much danger and anachy going on, that he wanted to buy me a flight ticket, etc. And then telling me he is moving.. ? He didn't respond to that last thing I said. It's been more than a week. And I wonder, should I say something or just leave it?
I can't stop thinking about him. I want him and need him so badly.
Lastly I said "I get it, I have to let go, I should have done it before. It's clear I have nothing to do with you and your plans so stop pretending you love and care about me. I won't get my heart broken again." I wasn't trying to sound like I was the victim. Maybe he thinks I don't want him to talk to me. I just don't understand why after telling me how much he misses me and loves me, that he wants to help me, that he is scared that I'm in this country with so much danger and anachy going on, that he wanted to buy me a flight ticket, etc. And then telling me he is moving.. ? He didn't respond to that last thing I said. It's been more than a week. And I wonder, should I say something or just leave it?
I can't stop thinking about him. I want him and need him so badly.
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