Hi!
Me and my BF have now been doing this long distance thing for over 2 years and everything have been going very well. I have been busy studying here in Sweden and working every weekend since we met, and he have been working over in Australia and been busy getting promoted and moved etcetc. I am now almost done with my degree and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel when it comes to my immediate every day life and career, but I get more and more frustrated with the distance to my partner now that I am going through alot of changes and I have to do it all alone.
I am currently working at three different jobs every weekend and every holiday I have off from school. During semesters I am working afternoons/nights and/or weekends. I am constantly busy, which have been great because time flies and I get to see him quicker!
But it all comes to an end in June and I have started to feel very lonely. All of my close friends have also found their mr/ms right and I am now the third wheel with all my friends and their significant other.
I am within 6 months going to change my life drastically. I am no longer gonna work at any of my three jobs and I will finish school and start a "new life" with a new career and I am scared to death. I am going to leave my safety zone that I have been in for more than 5 years and I really wish I had my partner with me holding my hand right now. The plan is to move to Australia June 2017 after a year within my new profession.
I have been travelling alot through school too to different development countries which have given me a new perspective on life and I really feel that I need my partner to support me in all that has been going on and is about to happen. (My dream is to work internationally i.e in Africa and India etc, which is what I am preparing for now by travelling there doing projects which is pretty tough sometimes)
He tries his best, but sometimes a text or a phonecall just is not enough.
I am tired of coming home to an empty apartment, never have a +1 to bring to dinners (which now always is alot of couples - and me), never have anyone to explore things with, no one to cook dinner to or with etc. He is like a ghost which I keep alive through talking about him. If I didnt, no one would notice that he is in my life because he isnt here physically.
I am also sick of always getting the question when I havent met people for a while if "im still seeing that Australian guy?" like that is a normal question to ask? I never ask my friends the first thing "are you still together with your partner?". It is like people are just waiting to hear "No, I am not. I am single and can now date a Swedish person like normal people do. YEY". Other questions also pop up like "how do you do it? isnt it hard? dont you miss being close to someone? Dont you feel lonely?". And we all know the answers to them questions. It is heartbreaking having to say goodbye and leave the person you love and know its 4-8 months until next time you see eachother.
To my question, or subject of discussion,
What do you do/ what do you think about to push through the feeling of being lonely when its starting to eat you alive?
I am seriously depressed and have been for a while because of this and I miss having someone here with me that ask me how my day was and kisses me when I get home. I cant shake the feeling of being the most lonely person on this planet. Like i am a single person in a invisible relationship that only me and him really see and understand.
(We have been dating since September 2013.)
Me and my BF have now been doing this long distance thing for over 2 years and everything have been going very well. I have been busy studying here in Sweden and working every weekend since we met, and he have been working over in Australia and been busy getting promoted and moved etcetc. I am now almost done with my degree and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel when it comes to my immediate every day life and career, but I get more and more frustrated with the distance to my partner now that I am going through alot of changes and I have to do it all alone.
I am currently working at three different jobs every weekend and every holiday I have off from school. During semesters I am working afternoons/nights and/or weekends. I am constantly busy, which have been great because time flies and I get to see him quicker!
But it all comes to an end in June and I have started to feel very lonely. All of my close friends have also found their mr/ms right and I am now the third wheel with all my friends and their significant other.
I am within 6 months going to change my life drastically. I am no longer gonna work at any of my three jobs and I will finish school and start a "new life" with a new career and I am scared to death. I am going to leave my safety zone that I have been in for more than 5 years and I really wish I had my partner with me holding my hand right now. The plan is to move to Australia June 2017 after a year within my new profession.
I have been travelling alot through school too to different development countries which have given me a new perspective on life and I really feel that I need my partner to support me in all that has been going on and is about to happen. (My dream is to work internationally i.e in Africa and India etc, which is what I am preparing for now by travelling there doing projects which is pretty tough sometimes)
He tries his best, but sometimes a text or a phonecall just is not enough.
I am tired of coming home to an empty apartment, never have a +1 to bring to dinners (which now always is alot of couples - and me), never have anyone to explore things with, no one to cook dinner to or with etc. He is like a ghost which I keep alive through talking about him. If I didnt, no one would notice that he is in my life because he isnt here physically.
I am also sick of always getting the question when I havent met people for a while if "im still seeing that Australian guy?" like that is a normal question to ask? I never ask my friends the first thing "are you still together with your partner?". It is like people are just waiting to hear "No, I am not. I am single and can now date a Swedish person like normal people do. YEY". Other questions also pop up like "how do you do it? isnt it hard? dont you miss being close to someone? Dont you feel lonely?". And we all know the answers to them questions. It is heartbreaking having to say goodbye and leave the person you love and know its 4-8 months until next time you see eachother.
To my question, or subject of discussion,
What do you do/ what do you think about to push through the feeling of being lonely when its starting to eat you alive?
I am seriously depressed and have been for a while because of this and I miss having someone here with me that ask me how my day was and kisses me when I get home. I cant shake the feeling of being the most lonely person on this planet. Like i am a single person in a invisible relationship that only me and him really see and understand.
(We have been dating since September 2013.)
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