I just need some help on dealing with my emotions.
My girlfriend lives in Scotland and I live in Australia. You can imagine the difficulty of living 10 and a half hours ahead of your significant other. This is fine for me though, yeah there's difficult times when she might wake up before I fall asleep but only to go to work and we get the 20 minute call on her way there. It reaches a point where you need more than just 20 minutes of communication in a day with the girl you love.
But like I said, this I can deal with and I've learnt to deal with it.
We both met working at a summer camp in the US and have been separated since September before calling this official in November. I booked a flight to surprise her for her 23rd birthday in January and it was amazing, everything we thought it would be and more. The best thing is that we have been doing really good since I got back home, the communication has been good, we argue less, we know what we're working towards and it all just feels more secure. Except for me...
I have moments when I don't know if she is what I want. I struggle to tell her I love her at night times because I don't know how I feel, I can't feel anything and she's just a girl. But then there's 6 out of 7 days of the week where my main goal is to get a visa to go live with her and build our lives together and to propose and marry this girl.
She's everything I didn't know I needed and I can't see myself being without her, but then I question myself if that's what I should be thinking when I do have these off moments.
I guess I just want to know if anyone else has been through these off moments and what you did to prevent it or pull through it? I obviously don't want to end it because I know when I'm out of this mood I'll regret it and be a mess but moments like this I don't know what to think.
Does this make sense?
My girlfriend lives in Scotland and I live in Australia. You can imagine the difficulty of living 10 and a half hours ahead of your significant other. This is fine for me though, yeah there's difficult times when she might wake up before I fall asleep but only to go to work and we get the 20 minute call on her way there. It reaches a point where you need more than just 20 minutes of communication in a day with the girl you love.
But like I said, this I can deal with and I've learnt to deal with it.
We both met working at a summer camp in the US and have been separated since September before calling this official in November. I booked a flight to surprise her for her 23rd birthday in January and it was amazing, everything we thought it would be and more. The best thing is that we have been doing really good since I got back home, the communication has been good, we argue less, we know what we're working towards and it all just feels more secure. Except for me...
I have moments when I don't know if she is what I want. I struggle to tell her I love her at night times because I don't know how I feel, I can't feel anything and she's just a girl. But then there's 6 out of 7 days of the week where my main goal is to get a visa to go live with her and build our lives together and to propose and marry this girl.
She's everything I didn't know I needed and I can't see myself being without her, but then I question myself if that's what I should be thinking when I do have these off moments.
I guess I just want to know if anyone else has been through these off moments and what you did to prevent it or pull through it? I obviously don't want to end it because I know when I'm out of this mood I'll regret it and be a mess but moments like this I don't know what to think.
Does this make sense?
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