So exactly one week from now I'm moving to Spain for a year. Its what I've wanted for a long time and I've been working towards this for a whole year now.
But now as it's almost happening I find myself crying over almost everything. I'm leaving behind everything, when I come back I won't be living where I live now and I will lose my wonderful roomie and also best friend with whom I've really lived all my college experiences with and discussed every aspect of our lives with. Today I'm packing up everything I own and tomorrow I will leave my comfortable room where I've lived for 4 years.
I've sold almost all my furniture, my first pieces of furniture bought by myself. Its hitting me now that I'm leaving behind my entire life and it won't be there when I come back. Every last thing I do here brings me into tears, like today I said goodbye to the kids I've been taking care of every tuesday for 4 years. And moments like these I'm just asking myself why the hell I'm doing this. Going to Spain is one of my dreams and ofcourse I will be with my boyfriend finally but its just an emotional rollercoaster right now.
So, how did you deal with this? Does it get better soon? Any tips on how to make this less painfull?
Thank you =)
But now as it's almost happening I find myself crying over almost everything. I'm leaving behind everything, when I come back I won't be living where I live now and I will lose my wonderful roomie and also best friend with whom I've really lived all my college experiences with and discussed every aspect of our lives with. Today I'm packing up everything I own and tomorrow I will leave my comfortable room where I've lived for 4 years.
I've sold almost all my furniture, my first pieces of furniture bought by myself. Its hitting me now that I'm leaving behind my entire life and it won't be there when I come back. Every last thing I do here brings me into tears, like today I said goodbye to the kids I've been taking care of every tuesday for 4 years. And moments like these I'm just asking myself why the hell I'm doing this. Going to Spain is one of my dreams and ofcourse I will be with my boyfriend finally but its just an emotional rollercoaster right now.
So, how did you deal with this? Does it get better soon? Any tips on how to make this less painfull?
Thank you =)
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