As the title says.. My SO is missing.. Today it has been a week..
My SO is no angel, he likes to rebel. So it got him in some trouble earlier this year. I don't want to get in to why he got in trouble, but it's nothing that will make him a bad person. He has been to court a couple of times now because of his 'mistake'and the result of that is probably a year and a half probation. There where two things in life that he wanted: The army and visiting me... Well that's not going to happen if you have probation.
So I had the feeling that he was pretty closed off lately, he didn't really express his feelings anymore.. He can be pretty extreme in his feelings so it bothered me that he didn't show anything to me. The first of March he had court again, so I called him to find out what happend, no answer. Ok, it happends, I'll call back on Friday. So Friday I saw him on Facebook so I called him right away, he picked up! YAY! I asked him how court went, he told me it went good!(a year and a half probation is not good, I heard this later on from his dad). I asked him what happends next, he told me it got postponed again till the end of the month. Anyway, we talked for 20 minutes, I told him that I was going to get some drinks with friends.. He told me to be save... He was probably also going to a party later on that day, so I told him, 'stay out of trouble'. In a laughing way, not a mothery way
So saturday I called him again, no aswer... And like I said, he was kinda closed off lately, not really picking up his phone.. So I tried to call him again on sunday. And the phone operator said:"This phonenumber is not in use anymore" (or something like that). I heard that before and I called his dad. His dad actually pays his phonebill and he has a couple of rules with my SO. And one of those rules is that he has to come home at night. If he doesnt do that he knows his dad will shut off his phone.
So his dad saw him last saturday (3th) and he didn't come home on sunday. Next monday.. still no SO.. tuesday.. no SO.. His dad shut his phone back on, reported the car that he is in 'stolen', not really stolen, I guess there is a different name for it. But anyway, police are looking for the car because it is his dad's car. His parents unfortunatly can't really report him as missing yet because he is a grown man and he has been gone before for a couple of weeks when he was younger, so now he is a 'person of concern'.
Anyway, I guess I just have to write it off.. I talk to his parents a lot, and all his friends and family are looking for him.
Please don't judge
How I feel?
I don't know how to feel, one moment I'm angry, the other moment I break down and cry. But I guess most of the time I'm just numb. I try to stay positive, but it is really hard, knowing that something really bad could of happend. I'm actually still hoping that I will get a phone call within a couple of hours. That he was just gone for a week, trying to escape from reality and all the BS..
I try to find things to distract me, watch a lot of movies and tv. But I feel so helpless, I wish I could do something. I actually send a couple of his FB friends that I heard him talk about a message if they have seen hem. So I check FB every 2 seconds... and almost everytime I go on Facebook I see a new post of friends or family.. That they are looking for him and missing him.. It breaks my heart everytime..
My SO is no angel, he likes to rebel. So it got him in some trouble earlier this year. I don't want to get in to why he got in trouble, but it's nothing that will make him a bad person. He has been to court a couple of times now because of his 'mistake'and the result of that is probably a year and a half probation. There where two things in life that he wanted: The army and visiting me... Well that's not going to happen if you have probation.
So I had the feeling that he was pretty closed off lately, he didn't really express his feelings anymore.. He can be pretty extreme in his feelings so it bothered me that he didn't show anything to me. The first of March he had court again, so I called him to find out what happend, no answer. Ok, it happends, I'll call back on Friday. So Friday I saw him on Facebook so I called him right away, he picked up! YAY! I asked him how court went, he told me it went good!(a year and a half probation is not good, I heard this later on from his dad). I asked him what happends next, he told me it got postponed again till the end of the month. Anyway, we talked for 20 minutes, I told him that I was going to get some drinks with friends.. He told me to be save... He was probably also going to a party later on that day, so I told him, 'stay out of trouble'. In a laughing way, not a mothery way
So saturday I called him again, no aswer... And like I said, he was kinda closed off lately, not really picking up his phone.. So I tried to call him again on sunday. And the phone operator said:"This phonenumber is not in use anymore" (or something like that). I heard that before and I called his dad. His dad actually pays his phonebill and he has a couple of rules with my SO. And one of those rules is that he has to come home at night. If he doesnt do that he knows his dad will shut off his phone.
So his dad saw him last saturday (3th) and he didn't come home on sunday. Next monday.. still no SO.. tuesday.. no SO.. His dad shut his phone back on, reported the car that he is in 'stolen', not really stolen, I guess there is a different name for it. But anyway, police are looking for the car because it is his dad's car. His parents unfortunatly can't really report him as missing yet because he is a grown man and he has been gone before for a couple of weeks when he was younger, so now he is a 'person of concern'.
Anyway, I guess I just have to write it off.. I talk to his parents a lot, and all his friends and family are looking for him.
Please don't judge
How I feel?
I don't know how to feel, one moment I'm angry, the other moment I break down and cry. But I guess most of the time I'm just numb. I try to stay positive, but it is really hard, knowing that something really bad could of happend. I'm actually still hoping that I will get a phone call within a couple of hours. That he was just gone for a week, trying to escape from reality and all the BS..
I try to find things to distract me, watch a lot of movies and tv. But I feel so helpless, I wish I could do something. I actually send a couple of his FB friends that I heard him talk about a message if they have seen hem. So I check FB every 2 seconds... and almost everytime I go on Facebook I see a new post of friends or family.. That they are looking for him and missing him.. It breaks my heart everytime..
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