Just got off skype to my SO. It was ment to be a quick good night which turned into an a hour and a half conversation, most of which was an argument, started by me, over nothing. I posted something a while ago about how I wish he would be a little more romantic. I realise now how lucky I am to have a man that cares for me so much, and is in all honesty, extremely sweet, kind, caring, paitent and loving. I've told him how lucky I feel to have him, and how much he means to me, yet I stupidly decided to try and push the issue one more time. I told him I've been missing some chocolate from england (I'm currently in the USA) and have asked, very nicely, several times if he would be able to send me a pack or 2. He so far has refused (although he did bring a packet when he came to visit). He basically told me that "missing it" was self inflicted becuase I made the decision to move here and if i really wanted it, i could buy it off the internet. However, for me, the point is not about the chocolate anymore. Its about the fact that he just downright refuses to do one very small thing that I ask of him. He then goes on to make a huge deal about how he came to visit me for 2 weeks and how he makes an effort to talk to me on skype whenever he gets a chance. I GET that these are extremely caring and loving things for him to do, and of course I appreciate every moment we get to spend physically together, or talking. However, he makes out like all things I do dont amount to as much as he does becuase I chose to move here and therefore he feels it is unbalanced (I visited at xmas, have sent him many care packages, always make myself available to chat) We are closing the distance again this summer, when I move back to england, at least until march 2013.
We're just not going to see eye to eye on things such as this. Neither of us is willing to budge on our point of veiws. I just feel like a crappy SO now for making a huge deal out of essentially nothing. We are ok, we said goodnight, and I acknowleged that I was being stupid over this, we said our "I love you's" and logged off, ensuring neither was pissed off at the other. Its just, in the grand scheme of things, I still dont think I'm asking for much at all? A little love letter or one care package - please be honest with me when I ask if this is pushing it?
I dont think I'm going to bring this up to him again though. I just feel like a crappy SO now becuase I pissed him off over essentially nothing. After everything he already does I still push for a little more, then we both get upset. I need to learn to reign myself in. Its just after last years communication breakdown we have promised each other to be totally honest and blunt if there is a problem, which I felt is what I was doing... (Or am I just complaining about nothing?!)
I dont want this post to be read as if I am complaining about him, becuase I'm not, like I said, I have no doubts of his love for me and how much he cares about me. I just want to know if I am complaining about nothing? I really dont want to upset him and myself over something that, although is really not that much of an issue in the grandscheme of things, is still kind of a big deal to me.
Thanks, and sorry if none of this makes any sense...
We're just not going to see eye to eye on things such as this. Neither of us is willing to budge on our point of veiws. I just feel like a crappy SO now for making a huge deal out of essentially nothing. We are ok, we said goodnight, and I acknowleged that I was being stupid over this, we said our "I love you's" and logged off, ensuring neither was pissed off at the other. Its just, in the grand scheme of things, I still dont think I'm asking for much at all? A little love letter or one care package - please be honest with me when I ask if this is pushing it?
I dont think I'm going to bring this up to him again though. I just feel like a crappy SO now becuase I pissed him off over essentially nothing. After everything he already does I still push for a little more, then we both get upset. I need to learn to reign myself in. Its just after last years communication breakdown we have promised each other to be totally honest and blunt if there is a problem, which I felt is what I was doing... (Or am I just complaining about nothing?!)
I dont want this post to be read as if I am complaining about him, becuase I'm not, like I said, I have no doubts of his love for me and how much he cares about me. I just want to know if I am complaining about nothing? I really dont want to upset him and myself over something that, although is really not that much of an issue in the grandscheme of things, is still kind of a big deal to me.
Thanks, and sorry if none of this makes any sense...
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