I don't know if you're still gonna come back here and read, I'm gonna tell you a few things anyway.
I'm Asian. I'm from Malaysia, a country next to Thailand if you didn't know. I used to have really low self-esteem too. Before I changed to study in an international school, that is. The way we're brought up in Asia is different from the states or European countries. People here are more timid, soft spoken, and reserved I guess. Unlike the westerners, many of us lack self confidence. In my country, people here are actually afraid to converse with a native english speaker because, like I said, lack of self confidence because english isn't our first language. Well, at least not for the most of us. Okay enough with the introduction. Point is, maybe your SO is just like that. Afraid that you'd comment on her accent, her pronunciation, or the likes. Or she may not think that she's pretty enough for you, which is how most of us think here, no matter how many times you try to tell us that we are beautiful. We'd just never buy it. Lol I know I'm generalising but yeah, just saying. Maybe you should give her some more time for her to open up. Since she said she'd make some effort.
My SO is like that too. But I guess my story is a little different from yours. Anyways, I haven't seen him before. Haven't seen a clear picture of him showing his face, nor have I seen him on webcam. Whenever I asked him to get one, he'd either ignore it or give me lotsa excuses. I've never heard his voice either. He wouldn't get a microphone and he said his SIM card is confiscated. I've made about 4 trips to his country before, but he'd tell me stuff like he's grounded or whatever. I wasn't even allowed to send letters to him too, because he said his dad is really strict and yeah. I know exactly how you feel. I feel needy of him from time to time. Because I need to know more about who he is, how he sounds like, how he looks like. To date, I still haven't heard or seen him. Maybe I'm simple minded, but I'm happy like this too. Like you, sometimes I feel like I'm the only one putting in effort. But I'm still not giving up because somehow, deep inside, something tells me that I'll be happy in the end. So, good luck to you and don't make any rash decisions.
I'm Asian. I'm from Malaysia, a country next to Thailand if you didn't know. I used to have really low self-esteem too. Before I changed to study in an international school, that is. The way we're brought up in Asia is different from the states or European countries. People here are more timid, soft spoken, and reserved I guess. Unlike the westerners, many of us lack self confidence. In my country, people here are actually afraid to converse with a native english speaker because, like I said, lack of self confidence because english isn't our first language. Well, at least not for the most of us. Okay enough with the introduction. Point is, maybe your SO is just like that. Afraid that you'd comment on her accent, her pronunciation, or the likes. Or she may not think that she's pretty enough for you, which is how most of us think here, no matter how many times you try to tell us that we are beautiful. We'd just never buy it. Lol I know I'm generalising but yeah, just saying. Maybe you should give her some more time for her to open up. Since she said she'd make some effort.
My SO is like that too. But I guess my story is a little different from yours. Anyways, I haven't seen him before. Haven't seen a clear picture of him showing his face, nor have I seen him on webcam. Whenever I asked him to get one, he'd either ignore it or give me lotsa excuses. I've never heard his voice either. He wouldn't get a microphone and he said his SIM card is confiscated. I've made about 4 trips to his country before, but he'd tell me stuff like he's grounded or whatever. I wasn't even allowed to send letters to him too, because he said his dad is really strict and yeah. I know exactly how you feel. I feel needy of him from time to time. Because I need to know more about who he is, how he sounds like, how he looks like. To date, I still haven't heard or seen him. Maybe I'm simple minded, but I'm happy like this too. Like you, sometimes I feel like I'm the only one putting in effort. But I'm still not giving up because somehow, deep inside, something tells me that I'll be happy in the end. So, good luck to you and don't make any rash decisions.
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