Asked her to be my girlfriend

[Jenna]

Does the hm in your username stand for holy moly? Cause holy moly your rambling goes on forever!

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Yeah, I've pretty much re-capped every time we've seen each other in this thread.

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I'm getting a little bit of lone wolf syndrome. I find myself wanting time to myself, and not wanting to get out. I had a chiro appointment yesterday, and the massage therapist worked on my hamstrings. They were in knots. I'm sore today from the massage yesterday. I'm pouty because I can't run, and because I'm physically hurting. It's spilling into my mindset and feelings about our relationship.

I went to her house Saturday evening, we ate, and met with her friend and went to the Rocky Horror Picture Show. I liked that she was open to seeing the show. Some folks just ain't into it. We dropped off her friend at her car, then went back to her house.

Sunday was rainy. She had rehearsal for the Stravinsky project, so I met with a friend to take pictures at a cemetery. She agreed to meet my friend, and we all ate together. We went back to her house, and she helped me with some stretches.

She asked me to help her to be accountable to eating healthier. She wants me to ask if she met her goal to eat healthy when we talk in the evening. I told her I would.

She has been very understanding of all of my recovery efforts. I want to be there for her through anything that she is having challenges with. However, I never asked her to check in on how I'm doing with my recovery (nor would I ask that of a partner).

So I guess this is kind of thought provoking to me. She asks thought provoking questions. We have good communication, and deep conversation. We say those things that are sometimes hard to say, and challenge ourselves for more open communication.

I suppose I'm having myself some thoughts about the dynamic of our relationship, and where we are, or where we're headed. I miss her when we're not together, so I'm not sure where this lone wolf stuff is coming from. It might be that black and white thinking, that if I can't be with her now, then I want to be alone.

This too shall pass.

Or maybe I really do want/need more time to myself. Maybe it's because I'm going stir-crazy from not running. Who knows.

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She arrived Saturday afternoon. I wasn't home yet. I went to get a garden hose because I needed to try out a pressure washer that I bought last month. I pressure washed some of my front porch. Then we got ready to go eat.

Before we left, we talked and I picked a touch exercise from the basket. (The basked of kisses, rubs, hugs, and touches). It was very nice. And sweet.

Then we went to dinner, and to see Sweeney Todd. The opera is more like a musical, and it is bizarre. Very strange. But it is very interesting and kept me interested the entire time.

We went home. Both of us were pretty tired.

I made waffles, we ate, and went to church Sunday morning. After church, we went to the fruit stand and got veggies. Then we made salads in jars. She was really grateful, and thinks that it will help her with her goal to eat healthier. I was glad to help.

It was really a good weekend. I'm glad to help with her goal to get healthier.

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I made roast on Saturday night. I started too late, misjudged time. It was really late before I got to her house... around 11 or a few minutes after. We ate, sat up and talked on the couch. We got up and out on Sunday and had brunch at a neat little place in her city, then quickly went shopping for salads in jars, then I dropped her off for the Stravinsky project. I made salads in jars while she was preparing for the show, and then went to the show. I got there last minute. The production was very interesting. We attended the reception and I met a couple of her musician friends.

She introduced me as her girlfriend.

I was surprised, and her fellow musician friends were excited to meet me. Maybe I have been jaded by the last ex who used education as her excuse for keeping me as a secret. My SO didn't have any problem introducing me as her girlfriend. I was really proud to be introduced as her girlfriend.

We went back to her house and had some roast and talked a while. It was a good weekend.

I'm looking forward to this weekend. My niece wants to go to the production on Monday, so I plan to bring her to the show. It'll be a surprise that we're dropping in. It's always fun to see her during the week.

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She has a break in school for Thanksgiving, so she stayed Saturday evening through Tuesday morning. The temperature dropped here over the weekend. It was nice to have someone to curl up with on cold nights. Time flew by too quickly.

Saturday night, she was craving Carrabbas so we ate there, then she went to the music conference, and later we had fondue dessert that was really good. During dessert, I reminded her that we've been together 8 months now. I told her that I still look forward to seeing her and talking to her. I've really enjoyed the 8 months we've spent together.

She went to the band directors conference on Sunday, so I went to church and then ate with the church folks after church. I went home and did some chores, made pork chops, asparagus, and cheese mashed potatoes. She helped. It was really good. The kitchen got smoky when a burner caught fire and her dog pissed on the rug in my bedroom. This is the second rug. She said she would replace both. Honestly, they're old. I don't really think she should have to replace both.

Last night I went to watch the Soldiers Tale with my niece. She was surprised that I drove down there to my alma mater to see her over on my work night. We had a talk with my niece and I couldn't help but to see how good she is with kids. Of course she is good with kids... she's a teacher. Definitely melted over how well she interacted with my niece.

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She spent Wednesday night through Friday with me. She went home Friday night. Then I went to her house late Saturday night.

She got to my house late Wednesday evening.

Thursday morning, we went shopping. I cooked honey glazed ham, cabbage, and mixed vegetables. We went to my sister's house for Thanksgiving. Everyone got along fine. We rode bikes downtown on the levee. We had different definitions of what a leisure ride is. I intended ride longer than what she thought a leisure ride should be. She got in a little bit of a funk, but didn't talk to me about it until Friday morning.

We slept in Friday morning. We went to see a Bruce Lee movie Friday night, went out to eat afterwards, then went to the rooftop terrace for dessert.

She cooked dinner Saturday night, and we sat up talking until late in the night. We talked about music. It was nice. We got up Sunday morning and got ready for her sister and one of her friends to come over. We all went out to eat, and then to Lunar Fete. It was pretty neat. When we got back, we made salads in jars for the week.

This is the most time that I've spent with her in one week. We get along alright.

We're planning our trip to Chicago. I'm looking forward to the trip.

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She came in earlier than planned on Saturday when I called her and told her I was on my way to the emergency room. I had an accident on my bike. My front tire hit a crack and got stuck in it. I busted my chin, hit my chest hard, and skinned my knee. She came to the hospital and waited with me. I had two cat scans and chest x-rays. She held my hand when I got stitches in my chin.

My face looks bad. https://imgur.com/a/PpX4Y

She looked after me all weekend, and went to my family Christmas with me on Sunday night. She stayed Sunday night and had to leave early Monday morning for work.

She was there for me. She helped cook and clean and watched after me.

Last night, I went to the Christmas concert that she conducted. I was a little sore, but I was glad to see the concert and to see her.

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The stitches come out today. I'm both excited and nervous about the stitches coming out. I don't want a scarred face, but I can't change the past.

I've let the bike accident bring me down a little. I didn't do much over the weekend, and felt real low energy. I went to her house Saturday evening. She cooked. She talked about her week, the Solder's Story, and work. I colored mandalas and listened.

We slept in Sunday morning, and then I threw a late breakfast together while she tuned the bongos. She ate and took off to the soundcheck. While she was gone, I got a nap. She returned from the soundcheck and I woke up from my nap. Then her sister visited. After her sister visited, we took another nap.

She was awesome in the concert. She played with Dr. John, Rockin' Dopsie, Grayhawk, and Christian Serpas. It was awesome to see her on stage with so many New Orleans artists. It was a good time. I enjoyed visiting with her sisters, too.

When the show was over, we went back to her house and planned our trip to Chicago. We bought tickets online to the live performances for our trip. Some of the things we wanted to go see were already sold out. We got it figured out, though.

I'm looking forward to the trip.