@ChibiFelicia: I know you are right. I truly know it. I guess to me it just seems more likely for her to cheat (especially since she seems bored) than for something to happen to her. I don't know but that's how I am. I mean she assures me that she wants only me and that nothing is happening. But at the same time she is swearing/promising that she is sleeping when I know for a fact, she isn't. How can her words really comfort me? I don't know. Maybe after good behavior she'll start to really mean what she says? I don't know.
@Zapookie, thank you for that. I remember a few days ago, I asked her how was her day/what she did then I asked her how she felt and she said she felt a bit stressed/tense about it. I guess from me asking her those things, it brought some anxiety? But I think, why? There is no reason to have such fear or anxiety if you really did nothing wrong. Am I right? So I'm trying to get her used to me asking her these things and not reacted negatively. Maybe it'll get her to not be stressed out about it? I don't know. It's just so sensitive this situation. I am afraid to upset it.
She is now 2 hours late and I am just having these flashes of the worst possibility of why she is late. I do believe I shouldn't act okay with her behavior but it's just that I'm trying to heal things so she won't hate me or anything. So I just sort of want to give her that freedom so then it'll be okay.
@Zapookie, thank you for that. I remember a few days ago, I asked her how was her day/what she did then I asked her how she felt and she said she felt a bit stressed/tense about it. I guess from me asking her those things, it brought some anxiety? But I think, why? There is no reason to have such fear or anxiety if you really did nothing wrong. Am I right? So I'm trying to get her used to me asking her these things and not reacted negatively. Maybe it'll get her to not be stressed out about it? I don't know. It's just so sensitive this situation. I am afraid to upset it.
She is now 2 hours late and I am just having these flashes of the worst possibility of why she is late. I do believe I shouldn't act okay with her behavior but it's just that I'm trying to heal things so she won't hate me or anything. So I just sort of want to give her that freedom so then it'll be okay.
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